Grandma.

Grandma used to give me gum all the time.

Grandma used to take me to garage sales and let me get whatever I wanted.

Grandma used to wear her zip up blue robe in the mornings.

Grandma used to laugh all the time.

Grandma used to drink fountain Cokes all day.

Grandma has stage 4 Lymphoma.

Grandma has to struggle to breathe.

Grandma is only 62.

Grandma is my only grandma and I love her.

Please be praying for her... and my family.

this is awesome.

Oliver's 3rd Birthday

Bughead is getting so big.

2 old curtains...

...reborn as treat bags for Oliver's 3rd Birthday Party!

I looked around for how to make the drawstring backpacks. Mama Urchin has a tutorial here. I liked this but I didn't find any gromets at Wal-Mart. So, I improvised and just sewed the ribbons into the bottom.

Fun!

2005 VW Passat!

I am so pumped! This past weekend, I got a car!

Justin and I had been doing good with one vehicle. I stayed home and he took it to work. If I needed to do something, I would take him to work and pick him up. It wasn't impossible, just kind of a bummer.

I am so grateful that we have been blessed with a new to us vehicle. We have paid off over $20,000 in debt over the past 18 months. While I wasn't too amped about another loan, I was glad that we had saved up a large sum of money for a down payment.

So, here are the exact photos of my (Justin calls it mine) car from the Tom Wood website. If you are in the market for a new vehicle, let me know and I will put you in touch with a genuine salesman. He was really great to us. And funny.

Now I can visit people instead of making them always come to see me. :)

(Did you see that sunroof?!)

this kid...

...makes me happy.

my oliver.

This is the song that I have sang to Oliver since he was a little baby. I used to rock him to sleep everynight and sing this to him... I remember being huge pregnant with Oliver draped over my belly, drifting to sleep, as I sang to him and Liam (in my belly). I remember one night, I was goofing around with Oliver and he would start laughing. Then Liam would start kicking me. Then I would start laughing. Then Oliver would laugh. Then Liam would kick. Then I would laugh... you get the picture. That is one of my most cherished memories.

To hear Oliver sing this... well, it brought tears to my eyes.

o and l

Have I mentioned lately...

that I will turn the car around to go get your "choo-choo"...

how when I get you out of the tub, and hug me so tight, I feel like my heart could explode...

that when you sing the Noggin' songs, I listen so close and smile like the world depends on it.

how when I hear you say "Momma", it opens a part of me that I never knew existed.

that I can't remember life before you...

Have I mentioned lately, that I love my boys, more than they will ever know. More than I ever knew I could. And I always will...


(Edit: Shout Out! to Aunt Sissy for our stellar shirts... You rock.)

5:16 a.m.

twisting. unreeling. searching.
for you through the sea of our sheets.

my hands travel the void on our full size.
to hang senselessly onto your silhouette.

to this, we drift.
as I safely cling to the sun on your back.

the most tender. most sincere.
moments are conducted here.

between dreams and morning day.
listening. so quietly. listening.

to the breath that vacations so shortly.
to be there.

i will unzip your chest.
and crawl inside.